i don’t know what i’m feeling nor what i should be feeling and it scares me. I’ve always been in control of my own life, always known what i’ve felt and what i wanted. But all of a sudden, I’m not sure of anything anymore, and it scares the shit out of me. this girl comes along and all of a sudden I’m not in control of my life; she is. she literally is in control of me; i would do anything for her. anything she wanted done i would do. whatever she asked me to do, i would do it in a heart beat. i’ve never felt that way about anyone before, and that is what scares me. she’s awakened things and feelings inside me that i never even knew existed. I never ever imagined one person could have so much power and influence over me. up until last summer, i was in full control of my life; i held the reigns. then she came along and took the reigns right out of my hands.

and i just sat there and let her